Jamarquan

As of today, I am one year sober. Merry Crootsmas y'all

So, here is why I disappeared. My brother was admitted to the hospital with acute pancreatitis, and it seemed like he was getting better. He has been in and out of the hospital for the same problems, and my family was told about 3 weeks ago that he(32) has at most 3 years to live. I am sorry for abandoning SJSU and USA, I am not currently looking to get back into coaching, as I don't think I can mentally handle it. All I can really say right now is that you folks are awesome, and I will pop in from time to time. Peace, love and all that shit.
 
- Jim

Anyone in NFLHC want a scout?

I would like to thank everyone who has reached out to me in the past 12-16 hours. It's hard to overstate what it means to me.

y'all, why not order from a local place if you have one 

Most of the time I am emotionally sound(by force) and will talk shit to others, with in the last week, I have not been stable, and I have kept to myself (not talking shit). Tonight I find myself scouring YouTube looking for feel good videos  because as far as negativity goes, I am at my wits end and will be for a couple days. Deep down inside I hate trying to be this strong for the young kids that were left behind. For those who were there for me when she passed away, I love you, and I will always be here for you. 

We're starting to get more new guys in here, especially FCS. First off, welcome! Secondly, there's plenty of guys who are always willing to lend a hand with your depth chart or any questions you may have. Give myself, @ImposterCauster, @TazerMan, @Jieret or @bingo415 a PM if you need anything, they're all really nice and helped me get a lot more comfortable in my first few weeks on the site.

We're starting to get more new guys in here, especially FCS. First off, welcome! Secondly, there's plenty of guys who are always willing to lend a hand with your depth chart or any questions you may have. Give myself, @ImposterCauster, @TazerMan, @Jieret or @bingo415 a PM if you need anything, they're all really nice and helped me get a lot more comfortable in my first few weeks on the site.

We're starting to get more new guys in here, especially FCS. First off, welcome! Secondly, there's plenty of guys who are always willing to lend a hand with your depth chart or any questions you may have. Give myself, @ImposterCauster, @TazerMan, @Jieret or @bingo415 a PM if you need anything, they're all really nice and helped me get a lot more comfortable in my first few weeks on the site.

We're starting to get more new guys in here, especially FCS. First off, welcome! Secondly, there's plenty of guys who are always willing to lend a hand with your depth chart or any questions you may have. Give myself, @ImposterCauster, @TazerMan, @Jieret or @bingo415 a PM if you need anything, they're all really nice and helped me get a lot more comfortable in my first few weeks on the site.

Croot points updated. https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1It-x36Sox4MvOjq5HF54-Be5ckl3vD15Rs7v04LK0kY/edit?usp=sharing

Pumph told me that Darnam said that Rocketjam said that he wouldnt be here for 2 weeks, so if he is gone for just that time don't have him inactive.

I'm having to put my dog down today, so I may not be up for responding to PMs/etc. in a timely manner today.  Thank you for understanding.

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This just in: Unemployed head coach discovers bag of wine in fridge, proceeds to make terrible decisions. More info later this weekend

I am not near a point where I can jump back in full time, but if there is a NFLHC team that would like my assistance as a scout/advisor send me a message. I would be happy to help with team building ideas, trade discussion, draft scouting, etc. I should have enough time to build my draft rankings and give advice on what I would do. I am not interested in a GM or coaching position. 

Day 100. I've forgotten what football feels like. It's been many moons since I've tasted victory upon my lips. I've grown quite feeble and I'm not sure how much longer I can hold on. The darkness is surrounding us all. In my cave I've tried to keep track of the days, but as my mind slips away and madness takes its place, I know the concept of time has no more meaning to me than a bucket of shells would to a ship lost at sea. Some days I wonder how it all came to this. Other days it feels like none of this really existed in the first place. Maybe I'm not real. Maybe I am. It's not for me to decide, and that gives me some solace as the days sim by. The musings of a lunatic is home to me: is air raid more pass the only scheme for a lost soul such as I? "No", the other voice says,  sounding vaguely like the dying breath of my old friend Wiki. But maybe it's just the wind. Tell my croots I love them. 

Congrats to Coach @NDunkelbarger69 for tying the knot with his old lady last weekend. Here's hoping for a marriage more successful than the simulation Buffalo Bills.